01: tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
He didn’t judge when I told him all of my shit. He told me I was beautiful, and flirted with me, and he was kind and honest when not many other people were. He managed to stumble into my life right when I needed him.
02: what on your body is hurting or bothering you?
The space directly between my ear and my head- where they connect. These glasses are GORGEOUS and I love them to death but damn they are hurting me atm.
03: what was your last thought before going to bed last night?
I was panicking about something- trying to explain myself to my therapist I think- practicing for tomorrow. I never remember exactly when I fall unconscious, but I remember the chaos of my mind just before.
04: what are you listening to?
Honesty by Billy Joel. It’s been kind of my anthem for getting through shit for the past two weeks. Honesty is what I need right now, from certain people in my life, and I know I won’t get it. At least singing makes the hurt lessen.
05: what’s something you’re not looking forward to?
Tests in my classes. My parent’s divorce. Moving. The end of Uni. Everything about the future, really.
06: where do you think your best friend is right now?
At her house, reading this, on her new laptop. Probably on her bed or the trundle.
07: have you kissed anybody in the last five days?
Yes, my beau.
08: sex on the first date?
Nope- I think of sex as a way to be closer to a person I love. I want to share an intimate moment- no matter how rough or how sweet it’s still an intimate moment between me and the love of my life. :)
09: kiss on the first date?
You kidding? Kissing BEFORE the first date is much funner. I mean, it’s kind of how I achieved my first date in the first place- kissing him. So yeah- kissing is fun, have fun, but of course be careful. And all that jazz.
10: is there one person you want to be with right now?
Yeah- I want to be held and cuddled as I sleep by my beau. I want to wake up in his arms and snuggle in deeper instead of worrying about what is to come.
12: is there something you would like to say to someone?
To all of my Kingdom friends: In a way I cannot express outside of text, I thank you so much for accepting me. Problems and all. For listening to me when I had no one else, for offering me help when I was lost, and for treating me normally even if shit was falling apart around me and I’d told you. Just… thank you for being there in a way no one else could be. And thank you so much for allowing me to be there for you. It gives me a sense of purpose that little else does, and it means so much to me that you trust me like that.
Thank you for seeing me as human, when a lot of the time I feel otherwise. :)
14: would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?
Depends on the person. I mean, sometimes my house is the best place to be- and it’s got an awesome bed and shit- but other times I just want to get away.
16: are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?
I don’t have any- so no.
18: ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?
Yep- and I DIDN’T HAVE ONE! Ended on bad terms, never really spoke again.
20: are you slowly drifting away from someone?
Maybe? I don’t know- shit’s pretty chaotic over on my end, so if I’m pushing one of you away I apologise. Pester me. I don’t like losing people, and I don’t like making enemies, and I love each and every person I’ve interacted with- because everyone deserves a bit of love in their lives.